Life has a funny way of kicking us when we are down. So much just seems to go wrong all at once. Overwhelms us, makes us feel like we are drowning.
There are many things happening within my own life that I am struggling with. Loss of connections, financial turbulence, trials of faith. I do indeed feel like I am unable to keep up or overcome the things that have been thrown my way. These mountains are hard to climb, I feel ill equipped to scale the rock face.
There is only one thing that keeps me anchored, and that is Christ. There is a quote that I saw the other day that deeply touched me: "The trials of our faith rarely come when we are ready to face them. They come when Jesus is ready to turn our face towards Him". It has been incredibly difficult to weather the storm alone. However, knowing that as long as I am making an effort to come unto Christ, I will be taken care of and that I am never truly alone. All I can do is my best, and my best is acceptable.
I often struggle with feelings of never being enough, with feeling that I have to prove my worth or my spirituality to others. Recently, when these thoughts start popping up, I counter with- "why do I feel the need to show other people that I am enough or that I have a testimony?". I know that I do. I make mistakes but I am learning. I am trying. God knows me and knows my heart. That's all that matters.
Through this tough time I have seen that I'm truly blessed. There have been small little miracles here and there which have turned out to be huge blessings. I am so grateful for the love that my Father in Heaven and Jesus Christ have for me. Though my heart aches at times, these experiences I feel are building the most important relationships. I look towards the future with hope and faith. I know that as I continue to try to follow the Savior all will be made well. I will be lead to my promised land.
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