I should have known that I would feel this way. Have memories, thoughts, feelings resurface.
Funny how something so sweet and so precious can cut you like a knife.
Today I am missing a kitchen where family dinners were had, and where too many carrots were cut.
But more importantly the people who made that kitchen a place I loved to be.
Today I miss the expanse of land that can be viewed from the back porch. Where you can watch the sunset and the chickens in the yard.
Today I miss the back roads. The rows and rows of trees that I would pass on the way home.
Today I miss the feeling of belonging somewhere.
Today I miss the family who so lovingly let me in.
I don't know how to manage the feelings I have so I do the only thing I can. I let the tears fall.
While what I feel is pain, I find it remarkable that I am able to feel such a deep and wide range of emotion. Isn't it amazing how much of a difference one person can make? So many doors open and so many close with the entrance and exit of the people in our lives.
While I am at a loss as to what I should do in my current situation, I am not confused about the feelings of love that I have towards all of the individuals who crossed my path and touched my heart.
If you're reading this, know I am so grateful for the difference you have made in my life. So grateful for every experience had and so glad that you have helped me to love deeper than I ever thought possible. Please reach out, odds are I probably need it. Thank you again, you are so loved and so very dear to me.
Funny how something so sweet and so precious can cut you like a knife.
Today I am missing a kitchen where family dinners were had, and where too many carrots were cut.
But more importantly the people who made that kitchen a place I loved to be.
Today I miss the expanse of land that can be viewed from the back porch. Where you can watch the sunset and the chickens in the yard.
Today I miss the back roads. The rows and rows of trees that I would pass on the way home.
Today I miss the feeling of belonging somewhere.
Today I miss the family who so lovingly let me in.
I don't know how to manage the feelings I have so I do the only thing I can. I let the tears fall.
While what I feel is pain, I find it remarkable that I am able to feel such a deep and wide range of emotion. Isn't it amazing how much of a difference one person can make? So many doors open and so many close with the entrance and exit of the people in our lives.
While I am at a loss as to what I should do in my current situation, I am not confused about the feelings of love that I have towards all of the individuals who crossed my path and touched my heart.
If you're reading this, know I am so grateful for the difference you have made in my life. So grateful for every experience had and so glad that you have helped me to love deeper than I ever thought possible. Please reach out, odds are I probably need it. Thank you again, you are so loved and so very dear to me.
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